I wish I had known, but I don't think knowing would have helped

I wish I had known, had UNDERSTOOD, that as one ages, shit just breaks down.

It doesn't require getting an illness, or being injured, no. And, let me be clear, what I am discussing is unrelated to my chronic illness and disability. But the fact that systems and procedures that have functioned my entire life just ... degrade in performance, this is the indignity I was unprepared for.

I know, I know, this is trite, this is fuckin' banal. People have been talking and singing and writing and making art about this, about the slow dissolution of function, since humans were human. Maybe before.

But, like, my digestion functions less predictably. My sleep is mostly good but occasionally just fucks up for no discernable reason. My eyesight and hearing are worse, which I was absolutely expecting, but not in the ways I was expecting. And I was completely unprepared for my sense of taste to fuck off into the void. (Not related to covid.)

If this has not started happening to you yet, I envy you.

I just wish that any food tasted good anymore.

I miss food being good.