Most of my memories are like fiction
Sep. 12th, 2023 06:19 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
resoluteI saw a post on Tumblr that made me think about my college years.
I don't have a lot of clear memories of college. (For the record, I am Gen X, I am An Old as far as Tumblr is concerned.) Those I do have? All look like I am seeing them on a vid screen. Like I am watching "me" act in scenarios. Like I am piloting a mech, and the mech is me. It's not third person omniscient, I'm not seeing it from outside my body. But it is similar to a work of fiction written in third person with VERY tight focus.
I wonder --
How much of that is because I was autistic masking SO HARD in college?
My memories were recorded like they were happening to someone else in part because I was trying to hard to BE someone else?
ND and NT people, how are your decades-old memories recorded? First person? Tight third? Third omniscient?
:chinhands:
I don't have a lot of clear memories of college. (For the record, I am Gen X, I am An Old as far as Tumblr is concerned.) Those I do have? All look like I am seeing them on a vid screen. Like I am watching "me" act in scenarios. Like I am piloting a mech, and the mech is me. It's not third person omniscient, I'm not seeing it from outside my body. But it is similar to a work of fiction written in third person with VERY tight focus.
I wonder --
How much of that is because I was autistic masking SO HARD in college?
My memories were recorded like they were happening to someone else in part because I was trying to hard to BE someone else?
ND and NT people, how are your decades-old memories recorded? First person? Tight third? Third omniscient?
:chinhands: