This is why I have started taking lexapro

Each day I wake up and have to decide whether I want to swallow without pain, or whether I would like my digestion to ... function, let's just say.

The only thing that manages the pain in my throat is either narcotics or enough weed that I am not capable of adulting. In order to take narcotics I have to take 2-3 different types of anti-emetics. Narcotics and the anti-emetics both have .... effects.... on the human digestion. In order to take enough weed that it manages this pain, I have to take the anti-emetics, with the same problems.

So I just alternate.

First day I take narcotics and I can swallow without pain, coughing, and gagging. The next two days I wait for my digestion to sort itself out and just grimly suffer through the pain. Once my digestion starts up again I go back to a narcotics day.

This has been going on for months.

Since September.

My lifelong emotional resiliency is not capable of handling this without support.

Hence, I have gotten a prescription for lexapro. Been on it about a week. I am very much looking forward to being done with this transition period.

I hope it helps.

Chronic illness and disability are so very, very wearing.